Chapter 53: 真的是....

真的是....

2nd year 了，参到这群朋友，让生活感到更miserable.

浪费时间，拖延时间....

无药可救。

已经是不够时间了，还不好好认真的做。

不准时，更不用说了。

说 9am 开始，10am 人才慢慢来，慢慢走，嬉皮笑脸地说声"hi"

不认真吗？就不要做咯。

这班人，最厉害的是....

- 不到最后一分钟都不会去做。

- 发信息不是不回信，就是说不想理。

- facebook 没人在，总是有问题时没有人会在那边帮助你。

- 或者在facebook 终于问到他们如何做时，就会有这种的reply...."这不像我做的，为何我要做？" 过后就offline 了....=.=

有时很想要有一个好好的安排，却给他们误会说是完美主义者。

炸到，good planning 和 perfectionist 都不会分 =.=

最后，来到这学期的last day，他们还是这样。

算了，我还是走我那一套，懒得踩你们...

Chapter 52: Why pray when food comes?

Yeah, i luv eating..... It makes me feels good. Whenever i'm stress, i'll eat; happy, i'll eat too...haha

Well, some time ago i came across this article, quite meaningful, saying why we need to pray before we eat....

(orar antes de comer).....:D

Praying over our food has numerous benefits:

1) It reminds us that God is the source of all we have, including food. We show our gratefulness to God by praising Him and recalling the blessings He has heaped upon us. Joel 2:26 says, "You will have plenty to eat, until you are full, and you will praise the name of the Lord your God…"

2) It allows us to honor God during everyday activities like eating. "He who sacrifices thank offerings honors me, and he prepares the way so that I may show him the salvation of God" (Psalm 50:23). When we ask a blessing over our food, we honor God by acknowledging His provision.

3) It is a good witness to other Christians and non-Christians. Saying grace shows that we're willing to publicly acknowledge our dependence on Almighty God for the gift of food. Teaching our children to consistently ask a blessing at meals sets an example they will remember when they become parents.

4) It slows us down for a moment. In our fast-paced lives, stopping all conversation and activity is uncommon. But as we bow our heads, close our eyes, and focus on our gratitude, our spirits are refreshed. In addition, relaxing aids our digestion and helps us enjoy the psychological benefits of eating.

5) It makes us ponder the quality of what we're eating. God will gladly bless the wholesome food He created for us. But what if our plates hold processed foods that barely resemble their original form and have little nutritional value? Could you ask God to bless a donut? A soda? When we ask the Lord to bless our food, it makes us think about what we put into our bodies, perhaps convicting us to make dietary changes.


In his book Living in Divine Health, Dr. Don Colbert recommends praying fervently over our food at each meal as part of a healthful eating plan. Saying grace is important not only for spiritual health, but physical health, too. When we ask God to bless our food, we're unleashing His power to bless our bodies through what we eat.


Many people make detailed requests in their prayers. Likewise, we should think about exactly what we desire food to do for our bodies and then pray specifically about it. I often say something like this: "Dear Lord, thank You for providing this nutritious meal. Please bless the food and allow it to nourish and energize my body. Protect my cells from any harmful impurities that entered the food from the environment or through processing. In Jesus’ name, amen."

Asking God to bless our meals is wise from a spiritual standpoint and prudent for our health. He wants the best for us in everything, including our food. Whether you're dining alone or chowing down with a football team, make it a point to pray over your next meal.

Worship the Lord your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water” (Exodus 23:25a).

Chapter 51 Same, but still different

Having course mates from different ethnics is challenging. The way you think, the way they think; the way you do things, the way they do things; the way you live, the way they lived. Tolerance will play an important part here, in order to keep peace within one another.

A second year me, living with my fellow non-Chinese course mates, having classes with them, working together…thought that I’ve grasp hold of their culture. Well, though I’ve spent one year lingering with them, having conflicts, but still, I’d yet to understand them thoroughly. What their culture and the “language” they speak. I thought I laid back and watch and observe what they do. Passing the “leadership baton” to them made them reveal their true self, leaving them do the leadership thingy, the planning thingy and the decision making thingy. In some occasions, having a good idea or a good planning brings no benefits rather than the effects of the other way round.

If you’re me, you’ll understand. Sometimes people just don’t get you. Sometimes people misunderstood you and they misjudge you. What you do, what you’ve plan and what you said, some people just don’t reach you and yet, in the other way, you get “good” replies and “good” comments. Having good time management, you got a title of being a perfectionist (no one likes a perfectionist, I bet you don’t too…); having a busy schedule at weekends, they don’t understand you. After the weekends of busyness, you’ll get a “hey why can’t you finish it by weekend” reply.

Hence for me I chose to back off, bearing all these by my own, taking the load. I don’t care what they say, but it’s a disadvantage for me, as living at such attitude for 3 years is going to choke myself up from the sardine can. Let them think what they want, do what they want, it’s none of my business. Quite fed up and tired sometimes tolerating. Well, I pray that whatever happens, God will make everything smoothly. Although there’re rough roads and stormy seas, it’s still smooth with Him.

(good guts if u manage to read this long thingy....:D )

Chapter 50: o.0

Argh….Wat the….

School…
Since Mid Sept…
Time table clashed here and there…
One subject cant make it to register…
The reasons the management gave….
“oh, sudah penuh, amik next sem la…”
what the…!@#$%....
This sem 15 credit hours, damn less…
Next sem 24 credit hours…. 2 tough subjects comin up…

JPA…
This wan yeng lo…
30 Sept results came out…
Cant login to check results…
“website down due to maintenance…”
Ask here ask there looking for help, no one…
Finally found someone….
Yeah, got to the website, login d….:)
But…
“maaf, masa log masuk terakhir adalah3 Oktober 2011, 9:45pm”
The time I log in was 10pm…..3^rd of October..
Login second time....
“website down due to maintenance…”
Great…==

hyee!!!

hey guys.... our church blogspot is up!!

http://pckl2011.blogspot.com/

 So, free to "see-see" and "saw-saw" (erhm) and browse throughout this blog. Nothing much in particular, just one page only.

I'm currently updating the sermon till the latest..... So, feel free to leave comments on how to improve it..

It'll be good if you wanna be abroad to help maintain this blogspot....thanks ya....

Chapter 49: Feelings...

I was shocked, stunned……
crying out loud in the deepest of my heart……
when I saw him…..
He’s pale, weak, and skinny to the bones…
Merely conscience
I shattered during the first met….(31 July 2011)

The second day I went…
Ah, he’s fine…
Compared to yesterday, at least, he could speak…
Companied him, with his bunch of friends…
We laughed, we joke, everyone was smiling…
And then, we parted our ways, back to our own home…

For the first time, I came across this experience…
To be with someone who is facing the dangers of his life…
I was afraid…
Afraid of saying the wrong things at the wrong time…
Doing the wrong things at the wrong time….
All I did…
Is standing by the corner, watching, observing and learning…
I see how his friends treated him, supported him and encouraged him…

One thing I know,
Unconditional love lives within every friend of his…
The strength, the support, the encouragement…
Though their sad inside,
but they still persist…
Putting a smile on their face to encourage…
They know…
If he hasn’t give up, why should they…

I salute them...
All these while they endure the hardship…
Experience the bitter moments…
with their dearest friend….
Who is in need at that moment…

Though I was just only a “spectator” today (I called myself),
but I just gain something valuable….
That cannot be learned by reading…
But only looking at them…
As role models…
Persistent, Love, and Hope…. (1 August 2011)

Dear God, I prayed…
In the silence I uttered…
“I believe… I believe…in Miracles…”

Dear Kevin,
I was touched by your spirit,
and the spirit among the ones that are close to you…
I prayed that the grace and the mercy of God be upon you…
the healing of God comes to you…
and the presence of God never leaves you…

Chapter 48: *Updates

Pooh...@@.....Its been ages since i last blogged. Wonder why, i don feel like writing since i started my holidays...

Anyway, lets update....:)

May 2011
Yeah, i've been working in church as a volunteer worker. Ah yes, of course paid but not much la. Main purpose is to gain experience and to serve God.

Well, its kinda hectic though in May. At my 1st week schedule was packed for the preparation of Mother's Day. Then comes the 2011 EXIT event and mission in Kota Bharu.....straight forward one after another. Hah, its my first time sharing how to run a cell group over there. Nervous from top to toes.

June 2011
Okay, now is June. Like i said, one after another...haha.... This is the month where our youth event DREAMS organized competitions like sports and etc..well.....as usual....busy...Lol... Plus the preparation for our DREAMS event in Bentley on 9th July..

Hmmm..Actually nothing special to post oso... Saja wanna post nia....heh....

Chapter 47: Woohoo Gan Cheong...

wou......this weekend EXIT drama comin, after tat straight is mission......needa share-ing bout church equipping class stuff (u noe tat's not wat i do best...XD) gan cheong..0.o...

after mission comes M4J....@@....ah...zzzz...lol

Chapter 46: 第三天之post...

第三天噜....

哗，grand 到....连timbalan pengajian tinggi 都来买。本地明星也来买。当然谢谢kl fm 咯，好影响，好气氛，好dj。
不错啦，比起昨天，都很好。有的看concert，又不会累。
又有得见jaksa 的头。(Jaksa 是宿舍的学生代表团，照顾学生welfare)。那么我们就这样聊了天。平时不active 的我，在那一杀那，就和最大的认识了。当然，我们都互相鼓励。从她身上，可以知道：强女人，也有温柔的一面，不错不错，蛮balance 一下的咯。

不过咧，after event 后meeting 时，本来2nd year 的人称赞啊，鼓励啊，以前的错误当学习功课啊，3rd year 的人就再讲讲讲。原来，昨天那些讲讲讲讲讲讲讲讲讲讲讲讲的人都是她们。今天咧，她又来了一个talkshow，连russel peter 都斗不过她啊！walauwe.....

来来来，我来分享一下她讲什么....
首先咧，她说有一位和她们一起的3rd year，在这个event 付出了，可是我们忽略了他。然后她就说，saya berasa bersalah...bli bla bri bri bru.....偶尔她讲太快了，一时收不到，不好意思。哈哈。然后又来重复昨天骂我们的事，讲我们没有主动，她看到时去帮忙，讲她好像很伟大。我心想，你rasa bersalah，你的事咯，哈哈，做么要讲到你自己叻？说一生要和那位哥哥道谢，就可以咯。过后又在继续她的talkshow。哈哈。我呢，就在后面自己duk shi duk shi duk shi，模仿techno 的节奏，顺便读书。哈哈，那个“讲员”的talkshow 长到，我隔壁那个朋友zzz了，哈哈! 过了大概半个钟啦，她还在讲。哇，本来没事的我，给她越讲就越觉得很du***。
ah kak 啊，其实，我真的不明白，为什么你，就是很喜欢讲。讲讲讲，讲不停。将我们几差几差。一点点的利害，就讲到上月亮，找嫦娥咩。收一点声，做多一点，嘛可以咯。讲讲讲，


本来今天是好的，


突然讲讲讲，变成骂人。adui! 拿拿拿，我来教你，下次要讲的时候，最好对这镜子啦大姐。


浪费时间，讲多左耳进，右耳出nia... 讲到1.45am，大约一小时，才讲完。

来跟你说一个秘密啦，那个3rd year，讲到哭叻！wa....geng lo... 


哎哟，这个3rd year 姐姐，啊不是，是aunty，拿tisu，抹一下。拿，aunty，你3rd year 了


啦，不要再哭啦，也不用一直ji ji jiang jiang ji ji jiang jiang，做好你3rd year，做好榜样啦。

Chapter 45: 4.20am之post

唉，真是的。真想把这一个post当出气桶。气到我特地睡少为了这个。

好....erm hmm erm...来update update 一下..:)
这个礼拜叻，平均睡眠的时间蛮少。为了敢assignment，连自己的健康都忘了。睡得迟，就起得迟。

累... 还撑着身体硬硬上课。上了，还要去extra class。去到那，教授说 oh i think we don have classroom。结果就在pondok 上课。jit doh ar! 然后，讨论时，问那个教授问题，她又说: oh ya hor, u are correct, maybe i will go and check first。wakau! check check check, 拜一考试叻你还check 什么哦。（结果都不知有没check tim）

deng...有开会。ok la ok la.... 一些人应该很想知道为何我这礼拜没回来，连主日也没去。原因很简单....

我的宿舍叻，就举行了kapreza。那个是么差来的叻？就是karnival primier zaba。

之前....
开会开会开到炸到啊，讲买那些无聊事。还以为去那边会有什么info，哪里知道讲的department 的问题。算了，给她的。

第一天...
遇到一个不是很会安排事情的组长。我们工作就是什么都要做，包山包海... 来brief 我们时，自己拿着program list 然后讲，讲讲讲讲讲讲讲，讲讲讲讲讲讲讲.....问他几时要做什么，他讲我jason, why u everything also need perfect? wakau! this is organize la not perfect。明明自己不会安排，就去请教别人咯，别浪费时间。
ok 啦，他又这一方面的弱点，我就想帮他。可是他又不要，叫他写完我们几时做什么，他又不要。我们就默默地在后面帮他做，减轻他的压力。最bei 的是，senior 看到都不帮。等到last last 才出声，deng..... 然后，最后完毕，还要evaluation!!!! Evaluate 什么啦，你懂几久吗？一个钟多叻！然后里面差不多15min 才是有点evaluation。其余？费话。还讲我们没有帮那条水。shit la...
过后，还要守夜。

第二天...
ok la, 这个组长，我就牺牲自己多一点帮他，跟着他，变成personal assistant. Eh, 这样我们的友情就进步了。ok ok ok....这不是重点。
那些性马的seniors，真的是*的。骂来骂去。真是很讨厌那种人，做了少少事，就讲到好像自己成功登上月亮一样。讲讲讲讲讲......讲讲讲讲讲.....讲不停，一个接一个，walau, 我急尿叻，干那赛啊！
然后讲完了，3am。我敢去厕所，去了就回房。朋友call 来，又去开会。还以为要讲明天的东西，原来啊，又讲讲讲讲....讲讲讲讲.....讲不停。
讲什么？neh....讲啊哇以前啊她怎样怎样失败啊，几难受啊，几辛苦啊....（意思是要对那些没有出力帮手kapreza 的人）然后讲什么做pa system 几难啊，所以我们要学习啊。
DENG!!!! 自己身为senior，应该讲你以前失败时怎样爬起来，怎样努力改变。pa system 不会的，上网学啦。不用讲到好像很难然后你突破到一点点就一直讲讲讲讲讲讲讲.....好心，你连调音都不会啊，开pa 开到要炸speaker 啊，反省啦ah kak......(我不是自夸)
自己还一边讲一边流泪......walau....ah kak.....kasi sapu itu tears la....don waste it.....

第三天....
待续...

Chapter 44: Mark 2:1-12

最近生病的人越来越多，在fb 也常常会看到人家所post的，不是咳嗽就是发烧或喉咙痛。那么更”够力”的，有的人生大病，这大病将影响他的未来，他也必须动手术。看到他身边的人都在为他哭泣、为他祷告、关心他。我自己也默默地，为他祷告。

想了一会儿，就突然想起圣经里的比喻。

马可福音2:1-12. 这是耶稣治好瘫痪病人。瘫痪在当时是无药可救，也就是说是今天的癌症。不必说多，你们都该知道故事的程序是怎样。四个朋友，带着一个瘫子，去到耶稣那里。可是由于屋子里太多的人，无法进去。到了这里，他们可以选择放弃，把朋友带走。可是圣经里面说到他们没放弃，还把瘫痪的朋友抬上屋顶，拆了房顶，才把瘫痪的朋友从屋顶放下来。在这里我想说的就是病人朋友的信心。这些朋友，都是因为desperate 要看到他们的瘫痪朋友的医治，就不管三七二十一只要把他带到耶稣的面前，他就能的医治。爬上屋顶难吗？还要抬那位瘫痪的朋友上去。还有拆屋顶，根本就不容易。所以，我在这边想告诉这一班的朋友，可以向这一个比喻来学习。学习这一班的朋友，努力地度过每个难关，拥有一颗心，就是为了是要看到瘫痪的朋友，得到医治。

Chapter 43: 橙？红？....

近来，有位弟兄和我分享关于橙、红或无的故事.......

看来，I'm neither orange, nor red.........

Chapter 42: Why not pray for a miracle?

As I was writing this blog, I came across ann jie’s mush talk…

Ah, in there she wrote:
“How many of you out there, working hard, struggling through, crying for something to happen, begging for something to change...
How about a prayer to witness a miracle?”

Yea, that’s right. I just prayed this morning as I woke up, and then I started blogging. As I came across this sentence, it felt like the sentence is asking me,
“you’re always there, working as hard as you can…
But…..
Why not sit down, and have a prayer and some words of God…”

Hmmm…. Right, prayer. I can say I’d not prayed (devotion) for a very long, long time. And I didn’t notice, that inside me, there’s my dry and tired spirit, waiting for God to fill. I didn’t know, till this morning, I started my devotion while listening one of the worship hymns. Thank God the when song started I’m like “God, I miss you…” Thank God that, I still have a heart, yearning for Him, thirsty, like a deer thirst for a stream.

So I prayed, just a normal prayer, with a psalm about thanksgiving. I just thank Him, and praise Him, that’s all.. Haha. I didn’t went “Oh God, I need you I need you ah!!” Well, its just a calm prayer, and lastly I told God, guide me, in my decisions and actions. “Let all that is from me is from You”, I said. Then I ended my prayer.

Yea, after prayer, I felt this little peace in my mind, no worries, just a smile on my face. Well I had lots to face these weeks, with assignments, the activities in school and most of all, peers. Facing all of them is just a headache. Well, I always put a smile in church, to meetings and serving. But as I come back to school, I would just have a random headache, or a stomach ache, or just being moody. I know, this is because I’m too worried, too busy, too….er….hmm….well….. Haha. In short I’m always Martha, not Mary. So, today onwards, I’m gonna be like Mary, sitting around Jesus, listening to Him. Yeah, I’m kinda happy now despite the troubles, and I know, all these are in His blueprint. All I need to do is, follow His lead. J