..................just....feeling like yelling..................

i.....need.....to.....................

YELL!!!!!!

geramnya me.....


you people just can't arrange things in a systematic way.

Dunno this dunno that....

What you know then....

Management sucks, time management, PUI!!!

wonder what you guys are doing up there, watching tv's huh? so relax la huh? 
how to raise KPI?? attitude la pls... buat kerja like this...... notis one minggu earlier cannot ar....
very busy meh har, sembang here and there, no need buat kerja lah.....


Oh well...... anger released....... cool and calm....fu~~

Chapter 32: Choices

Choices, is something you can choose, is an act, of choosing two possibilities or more. Yet making the final decision is rather tougher than I thought, since both parties also need to give way.

Decision making is still tough for me, as final decisions are often made based on strong supporting facts and not by feelings. Plus, more of the time I do make foolish decision; immature thinking, and always lead by emotions.

Hmm…. Choices and choices…. Wonder what best choice is for me. Someone approached me a while ago in the afternoons. Apparently he was finding recruitments for AJK post for the “Pesta Ang Pow” (Ang Pow Festival). Joining it will be having almost a hectic schedule for me, as meeting s and activities might be held during the weekends, which means……..not going back, not going for ministry, and not seeing family.

Hah, this may seems hilarious to you. “It’s a great opportunity to join because you can learn many things and get to know others and more networks.” said someone. “This is a very big and grand event because the datuk’s are attending.” said another. What was shocking was one of my course mates handed me an application form. “nah, fill in this and you’re under ajk of my group”, said her.  Astonished and speechless, I took the form and went back to my room. I then rejected to fill in the form and she gave me a kinda disturbing reply, “I don’t care, if you don’t fill in you need to find another one to replace you.” Wow, I, felt, a little threaten. Just about then the tone of her speech dropped, “Please la, we need to recruit 15 AJK’s, its very tough for us.” she uttered. Sigh, first I felt compassionate for her ‘coz of having so much pressure in finding AJKs. But, entering it will be a bon’voyage to church ministries, as follow ups are needed to be done. Well, its kinda hard to make choices like this. Its like not accepting it, the friendship between us may lead to bad impression, or whatsoever. Accepting it, well, hmm…….its stated above then.

Sigh, to take or not to take. The philosophy of The Matrix stated, “The blue pill or the red pill”, said Morpheus to Neo, which the decision made by Neo will eventually change his life. Yet for me it’s not that crucial, just an example. Robert Frost, a famous poet, “The Road not Taken” stated he took the path where the least people will choose, and it leads him to an unregretful result. Choosing wisely is crucial.

So Jason, which path you’ll choose, what pill will you take?

What does the Bible says?  “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Phil 4:6. Yea, I shouldn’t be worrying about things like this,  I should thank God, for giving this kinda situation for me to learn something, (God ar, pls no next time ar….pls pls) and not to worry.

Chapter 31: Hmm... I wonder, just wonder, only wondering....

Lately, there's been a change....
of the perspective from people's view....
towards me...

Let me see...
Is it because i entered uni so fast....
and without informing anyone else??...

Hmm....
I wonder, just wondering....
Can it be true? Or is it not?

Just observed...
Some people's eyes towards me...
Are they criticizing? Condemning? or Joking?

Hmm....

I wonder, just wondering....
Can it be true? Or is it not?

Their words.....
Are kinda sharp....
or am i being too sensitive?

Hmm....

I wonder, just wondering....
Can it be true? Or is it not?

There's a phrase saying....
Don't let your eyes fool you...
Yea, eyes do fool you sometimes...
But not sometimes too...

Hmm....

I wonder, just wondering....
Can it be true? Or is it not?

Just wondering....just wondering....
Relax, i'm cool, i'm fine, i'm just wondering...
If it's true, i'm alright....

Chapter 30: 离....别

第一次认识你，就觉得你的人真好。
可是为什么，你还是选择离开呢？
好多为什么，好奇怪，好难过，但最终的是，
好舍不得.....

第一天来到大学，什么都不懂，什么都不了解。
还好有了你，帮了我许多的忙。
遇到不足的时候，你都会帮我。
可是，现在你要走了，
只好和你说声谢谢。
谢谢你一路来的帮忙。

那么，最后祝你有个美好的前途，神祝福你。